Saturday, May 4, 2013

Today IS the Day

Now, I have always thought of myself as pretty, but I've always thought I have a pretty face, not a pretty body. I have been overweight as long as I can remember, and I've said I was going to make a difference and eat better and work out more and get in shape. I've always said that until I've had pizza or ice cream or french fries in front of me. Then, it was, well, this one time wont hurt. But guess what?! That one time lead to another and then another, and then it was normal again and I didnt think twice about it. Lately, when I look at myself in the mirror I feel so depressed, a feeling i had never felt before when really looking at myself. I found my face to be pretty attractive and my smile to be cute.. now, all i see is the pale skin, double chin, fat cheeks, and sad eyes. My arms are huge, my thunder thighs are atrocious, and my stomach makes me so angry. How did I let myself get here? I've spent too many nights feeling sorry for myself. Ive always been athletic, but I've never been challenged or challenged myself hard enough to not give up on myself. I have got to see that I AM WORTH IT! I watch The Biggest Loser every season, and think, man.. i would DIE to be on that show! I would be the next Tara, or the next Danni! I would soo kick ass on that show! I would embrace Jillian's words as they were being screamed at me, Hold onto Bobs Words as encouragement and hope. I know I can do this on my own... I know I have the Will to change my life! I deserve to have children, i deserve to love myself, My husband deserves a better wife, and my future children deserve a great mom. So many times have I cleaned out my pantry, just to restock it with what I took out next Shopping trip.

I am wanting to try the Paleo Diet, which i know is a hard diet to transition to, but i know i can do it! I also vow to start going back to the gym 2-3 nights a week! I vow to start running a mile every weekend. If ever I have needed the love and support of friends and family and my Holy God, this is it!

My current weight goal, isnt a specific number, but i know i want to loose about 80-100 lbs. Will you come with me on this journey?

 I know I can do this.. 1 Step at a Time, 1 Change at a Time, to change my 1 Life!

I hope along this journey you can follow me and we can inspire each other and hopefully share our stories of hope and heartache, victory and defeat together.

May God Bless you all in your journey.